VALERIEEEchiam.

2011-07-10T01:36:00.002+08:00

WHY WHY WHY?

Why cant you just see the reality?

Why cant you see that you are controlled ?

Why cant you just see things that i can?

Why must you force me?

Why are you born like that?

Why cant you wake up and see the fact?

How can i change you?

How can i let you see the truth?

i'm so disappointed in you. I don't wanna be like you. I wanna control my own thinking. I wanna lead my own life. I don't wanna be the weakling. I wanna live in reality.

2011-05-29T00:32:00.003+08:00

Why are you stressing me? please don't try to force me out of my limits. GRHHHHHHH i'm just so not used to your style. Stop pressurizing me.

2011-02-12T01:20:00.002+08:00

i'm jus so tired of everything. Have you ever thought of wat we will become if one day, u have her or i have him? i think before that, we wont be friends anymore. Jus think of it. U'll be busy for her, or same goes for me. We may concern each other really much now. But .. when this day comes, the one who has the other half would surely start to distant away from the other. I dont want any of us to feel sad again. I don't want each other to become our everything, when we know that it'll all end one day.

I think we're alr more than friends. But i also know that we're not meant to be. So wat is it now? Wat am i supposed to do? I know i can't. But if this goes on, i'm afraid that i wont bear to let our friendship die. But as for now, i know i havent fall for you YET. Please don't make this happen.

I'm really showing too much corncern over you alr. Wat on earth am I doing? I don't even understand it. I don't understand what's going thru ur mind too. I know u really treasure this friendship a lot. but because of this, do u even realise that u're too over alr? its as if i changed ur whole life up-side-down, u know it? It'd alr shown that i mean the world to u. But how can a normal friend mean the world to u?

Everything is just so wrong. i cant abandon u, but i cant fall for u too? this is really funny. If i really put my heart on u, then isn't it the same as waiting for u to abandon me one day? Are u seriously mad?

I know we're both not sure if we both really concerns each other truely. But... In my heart, i seem to know the answer. but dont u think that u are putting urself as the middle of attention in this case? if u wanna be my good friend, then u will never get my fullest attention. At most, u're only gonna get wat kelly, Sb, pei and others get. I am alr giving u way moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee attention than them alr. This is not how i normally does things. WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ? U get jealous when u see that i have so much close friends. U want me to be urs? FUNNY.

2009-06-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hi! I'm now using my sis's phone. She signed a plan tat enables her to sign on to the net free. THIS IS SO FUN MAN! :D HAHA . COOL RIGHT? Hair, long time never use le, my email now got 216 unread msg. It definitely feels tiring after reading and deleting all these. Hmm, lets just leave it to burst!

2009-01-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

hmm, my uncle just passed away at 3 pm plus. I couldn't believe it sia.. haizz. I thought that i wouldn't cry lor.. but i did, obviously. But i'm fine now. I guess i'm not really very sad actually, jus too sudden that i can't accept it ba.. i wonder how is my auntie and theie son, who is 15 too, are going to live without him. My bdae is coming , but ...

I think i will forever remember my uncle's day of death, 1st jan.

2008-11-22T20:14:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps! After exactly 2 months, i FINALLY updated. From this, i believe u guys see how busy am i. Haha(:

My highest record is 30 mosquito bites within one day. I myself is not sure if its done by mosquitoes or some kind of creature. But Lim Kelly said its nothing. ): LOL

Oh, btw, Im having a match against Yishun sec on thurs. Coach said that we had chance of winning, cause they share the same coach as Bukit Merah sec. & we won Bukit Merah ; Our 1st winning match ! haha(:

Kelly & Fiona , Thanks for making my blog "alive". (:

2008-08-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

Omg. Im gonna get a ZERO for my geog. component for the ipw. I was only told that today was the due date at 4 plus. Furthermore, its not done yet. Anyway, im not hoping that i will pass my combined humans too. ><

Had been quarreling wif shu bin recently. Simply quarreling over everything. I was just freaking pissed off wif her lah. I told her that she've became more ba dao, but she said that she felt that it was me who changed. & I realised that im not able to calm myself down as much as i used to do so. i Just very irritated be everything around me lor.. i dunno why, just went loose. Maybe its because of the stress that i've to cope with?

Had tons of tests recently. But i think i did quite well, maybe. Had both E & A maths test today. Didnt complete both papers. E math; no time, 5 mrks gone. A math; didnt know how to do, 3 marks flew off. Lol. Even though, im still confident that i'll do well. (:

2008-08-09T02:41:00.001+08:00

Yay! Finally got my blogskin changed. April, updated.

2008-07-30T20:29:00.002+08:00

Hi ! Im back~ LOL
hmm, so many tests squeezing together nowadays. OMG, camp! But now, i realise that i would prefer to be wif 2/6 lor. Its not tat i dun like 3/3. Instead, im actually closer wif 3/3 larh, but wat that 3/3 is lack of, is the .. 3/3 SPIRIT LIKE 2/6! (; Therefore, i dun look forwad to camp tat much already lor.. Somemore Kelly is going back wif her class. ): Nvm, i still got the 2 of them. But i know it wouldnt get anywhere fun without you guys! Erm, girls, i mean.

Btw, i've been selected for the OBS. But i dun feel like going, despite that everyone is saying :" Why dont wan go? Do u know how many ppl wanna go, but cant?!" I just dun feel like going. If i goes, im just trying to find myself troubles and worries. Furthermore, it is during the school holidays! I'll rather stay at home and sleep. :D

I feel like changing my blogskin. But im just too busy. lol

2008-06-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

Haizz, my life is terrible. My dad's taxi had broken down. Omg. I've lost freedom once again. :(
And the worst is : i'll only regain my freedom on fri. But he's not as 'ba dao' as he used to be larh.. Even though, HE STILL KEPT ON ASKING ME TO STUDY,STUDY & STUDY! I seriously dislike that, although i know its for me own good. & mum said that i must obey him, jus act as a good kid. If im not performing up to his expectation, he will blame her, definitely.

Hmm, went to bugis wif hui ytd. It was rather boring, but relaxing. See, two poor kid that no one cares. Everyone was jus busy. That pak kei said that she wasnt free, i guess. && KELLY!!!! Oh my kelly! :( She only gonna return on fri. That pak kei is also so not free this week!?!?! grhh. plus i've lost my freedom.. We havent even gone out once together throughout this holiday. haizz. Nvm, at least we will be seeing each other in sch soon!

A holiday which is not like a holiday.

very chim right? i know. (:

2008-06-05T16:18:00.008+08:00

Yay~ ,went to Sentosa wif kelly, huann & hui on mon!
It was so relaxing larh. & i enjoyed myself! :D We spent our whole day together. Took tons of photos too! I shall upload some! But kelly seemed to be quite low, & it affected me too.

Shadow! (: HAHA, Im finally the smallest!

This is nice.

hui is so zhun! HAHAH!

Show ur teeth!

I like this!

We were having dinner at 7- eleven. & I had my bitter cappuccino.

Finally, finally i have a day off from school. YFC is making me so damn stressful. :(

Meeting April, Kelly & hui for dinner later!
Omg, it had been long since i got together wif April.
Btw, Kelly is flying tml. & im gonna feel empty. haha!

2008-05-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

holiday = school days
Omg. haizz, im so busy. For these two weeks, i will only be free on the 5th. & , I think from 31th onwards, we will start wif the YFC thingy. I have no idea how these lousy ideas of ours can actually be approved. I really regretted joining this YFC in the first place.

I really wonder why do i tend to get lousy marks whenever i studies for the exams. I swear that this is the first time i really worked hard larh. But i just dun understand why this is also the first time i get such lousy marks. Its like : " So wats happening? " Mum is nagging at me now and then. She kept on saying that i did not study or watsoever~ . I really feel so sad larh.. I really did studied, but its jus that my effort didnt pay off. And now my mum is like down there saying that I NEVER STUDY AT ALL?! Grh.

2008-05-09T00:36:00.005+08:00

Okay, i decided to upload some photos since im somehow freee.

Im not that pervert, but ong is.

This was not my hand, even though it really looked like.

Shubin's hair is flying off!

zilianed out of boredom.

PEPPER! ;D

I wrote this! haha

We went for the YMCA interview recently. & I dun wanna carry on wif it anymore. =.=

2008-05-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

Exam is so irritating. I SIMPLY HATE STUDYING! I think i will do quite badly this time, despite giving up on my sleep to study. & wat is an exam when its all about how will you memorise?
Yayyy, exam is 'over' ! To me, the only problem i think i have is that im not humans type. I simply cant memorise a stack of worksheets or so. Therefore, i think im towards the science and maths. Thats why i say exam is over!
Omg. I feel so bad lorrr. I shouldnt have laughed. If it was me, I would feel ... Actually, i think i laughed bcoz this was time first time ong said such a thing.. Whatever.

IM SO SO SO SORRYYYY! :(

Btw. i got 33/50 for my Emath paper 1. Its lousy. But okay larh, still acceptable. My expectation is like about AT LEAST 35. But i myself know exactly how badly or how well i will do. & thorefore, i dun get sad over my results. I shall work harder for my paper 2! :)

2008-04-19T20:49:00.002+08:00

Yayyyyyy!
We're moving up to 3/1's current classroom on mon!!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! ;D

Omg larh, exams is SO around the corners!
Grh. Why did mr liew only told us the exam dates two weeks before it?!
Omg . 1 more week left! :(

2008-04-08T19:56:00.002+08:00

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG! OMGGGGGG!
Omg, i cant believe it!
Yay, im so happy! :D:D:D:D:D
Can someone just slap me?!
HAHA! (:

2008-03-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

HAHA, i cant wait to see Chee Kiat sitting wif Shubin! LOL. But the list is lost. So maybe there would be some changes. I also dun know larh. But i guess it would be fun if shu bin sits wif him! Eeyer, im so poor thing. Busy wif projects this wupupeek. So busy that i dun even have the time to sleep! i only sleepy for 4 hrs today. i guess i will only wake up after 1 tml . LOL. Haizz. Im so stressed up. So stressed up because of ... Im very tired already larh. Hmm, i everything also tired one larh! LOL!

I LOVE TO SLEEP ! ;p

2008-03-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

Today was quite fun larh. Like 3 direction bai chisss. Haha! & 3 idiots in the rain! LOL! April, u really wanna go back to that watever lollipop shop arh? haizz.. I feel tat _____ is soooo distant from us lor. Hmm, holidays would be over soon. SO TIRED SIA! I havent slept enough. okay. good night! zzzzz

2008-02-20T21:24:00.005+08:00

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

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Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world!

Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable.

Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

2008-02-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

I found this meaningful bulletin post.

It's not the fault of the student if
he/she fails,
because the year ONLY has 365 days.

Typical academic year for a student:
1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year,
you know Sundays are for rest.
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Days left 313.
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2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather
is very hot and difficult to study.
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3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
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4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health)
means 15 days.
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5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies & chewing properly
swallowing) -means 30days.
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6. 1 hour for talking(human is a social animal) -
means 15days.
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7. Exam days - per year at least 35days.
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8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival(holidays) - 40days.
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9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
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10. Movies and functions- at least 2days.
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1 day left.
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11. That 1 day is your birthday.
How can you study on that day?!?!?!?!? !?!

Balance =0"How can a student pass ?????"

2008-02-15T21:38:00.003+08:00

okay lah.. Actually 3/3 is not as bad as i think larh. Just that need to look at that TAN SHU BIN'S face colour (脸色) lor. Den that that ___ always listen to her de! Its like, wat the hell lah! But at least i still got Brandan sitting beside me. Grhh! Dun treat me as a sick cat okay?! Aiya, im very tired. Very tired about ... , very tired about sch work. I now very guai lor! I got pay attention in class! But i can really fall asleep until i have no idea that i actually had my saliva flowing out from my mouth. LOL. I was also SUPER SHOCKED that i could be tired up to that state larh. So, actually not going into the same class wif u guys may be a good thing too.

I very tired about ... le larh. 再等下去也不会有结果的lah. But wat to do? My mind ask me to let go, but my heart wouldnt let me to. Its very difficult to do so. The easiest way is to let me like another person, den i will be able to let go? Whatever. So many males in this world, but why ... ? Its very difficult to like ... u know?! I know someone~ understands. Am i right, someone~ ? LOL.

Aiyo, nowadays so many homework sia. So tired larh. zzzz. Hmm. Im looking for skins because im sick of this current one. But it seems like this is the best of all.

2008-01-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the happiest bdae EVER, i guess. Aiya, i actually got a lot of things to say de.. But i cant recall a thing now. I HATE 3/3. I really really really regret not discussing about the subject combination wif u guys. I REGRET, I REGRET, & I REGETTED! Walao, i really regretted sia. I HATE 3/3, I HATE 3/3, I HATE 3/3! Like mad larh, only 10 girls in the class?! And hor, i nv knew that randall and brandon are in 3/3 too, until the 1st day of sch larh! Actually, mr tan wee liat is a gooood teacher. He may seem to be fierce, but actually he can be very kind, humorous and cute too!
& ppl , pls listen to this song that i've put in. ITS VERY MEANINGFUL OKAY?! It a song from angela zhang shao han: neng bu neng yong gan shuo ai.

haizz. I realised that i fell in deep deep deeply. I wanna get out, but i jus cant. After today, im much much more certain of some things.

2007-12-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

Im currently watching 放羊的星星 cause April asked me to. I dun think its very nice. April, pls dun slap me. haahah. I dun really have the feeling like im dying to watch it like that. Hmm, nothing to say le. Oh ya, im still having cca in the morning tml . haizz, sian sia. whatever larh. Bye~

2007-12-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

Actually, im afraid to face the fact that we're gonna go to sec 3. I know we're down there believing that our friendship will last. But we all know that its impossible to remain our relationship this deep forever. We all know, one day, we will stop meeting each other, stop doing whatever we are doing together now. I suddenly hope that everyday is sports day. If its so, den our relationship will last. It isnt possible for us to continue meeting up to play cards and whatsoever. Because same goes for it, we all know that one day, we will be tired of all those same things, same action we does. I got smth to say: I seriously envy April & Hui. Okay lah. Enough of all this. Im watching the 换换爱 , which made me cry, and thats why i became so emotional .

2007-12-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Waiting for the show to load. Current show: 换换爱. Its not nice at first. But until like bout episode 3 like tht than it became really really nice. Okay. Ytd, when to Far East wif mum. Aiya, nothing to write le. Im wondering why April ( ,it was typed unwillingly,) didnt online today. I suppose shes out for shopping? okayokay. bye~

2007-12-11T16:49:00.000+08:00

Its raining again. =.=
haiz.. At first, i thought that it would be great if they stay at my house. But who knows, their parents doesnt allow it. Empty hopes. Hmm.. Im really very bored at home. Its either watching shows online, eating, or sleeping. Nth better to do. And we jus cant meet up. This one free, that one not free. That one free, this one not free. Two words: time clash. Even if we can make it, we dun even know where to go. 天下虽大，却容不下我们。So, the best solution is.. to stay at home. Whatever.. I had been watching the show: 公主小妹. Its REALLY REALLY REALLY nice! But it only got 13 episodes, which is so damn short larh! & WuZun is really very handsome okay? Hes like so attractive until .. i dunno how to say. i just simply love him.
Ya. And guess wat, i met yihui ytd, when i went to sch to buy books. Its all fate. Hahah.

I wanna go to bugis. Mum says that my cousins are coming tml, so cannot go. On thurs, my house will run out of electricity because they ppl wanna dunno change the watever thing. & we need to let the ppl in to do dunno wat. So cannot go out. Fri, Hui say she can pon cca, & kelly's free. So maybe we're going out? But where to go?!?!?!? Grh. I dunno larh! But mum say maybe we go bugis on fri lei.. Aiya! Whatever. 走到桥头自然直.

& i miss .

2007-11-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

At mac now wif kelly. (: Waiting for chuhui to end her cca. I was so bored previously, cause LIM KELLY IS DOWN THERE USING MY SIS'S LAPTOP FOR THE PAST ONE HOUR!!!! LOL. And im down there waiting for her to realise that she was using my laptop! haha! im joking only okay. i offered to let her use it. And that tam pak kei is unwilling to bring dowm the poker cards. LIM KELLY is now reading my post, giving nasty remarks! Amd we're down there fighting wif tissues.LOL. Shes childish! LOL. Still down there saying .'s this and that. Whatever. Shes hurting my ears. haha!

2007-11-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

Finally got the chalet booked.
But we've still got tons to do.
Luckily sis is offering to help in some ways.
LOL.
Bleh.. Im so useless.
.
Celebrating dad's bdae tml. (:
i want buffet! HAH!
But his bdae is on 29th.
.
Meeting April and Hui on mon to discuss on the bbq matters!

2007-11-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

YAYYAYYAY!
Sis agreed to help us pay first!
LOL.
Going out wif hui and kelly later.

2007-11-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

&&&
I got a very gooddddd news!
I CAN STAY OVERNIGHT!!!
yahhooo! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2007-11-17T18:29:00.000+08:00

Oh. Im going crazy.
Now that April is away, things have to get settled by hui and i.
&& Hui sis is not letting her to use the com, so i have to do it all alone.
There are so many problems, but i have no one to tell.
Hui and i were actually considering the costa sand chalet at pasir ris/downtown east.
But.. the pasir ris chalet have no more available spaces on 4th.
So, we're let with downtown east.
I tried to book it online.
The next problem is..
the web asked me to choose a package, but there was only one package, which was having a promotion for a 2D/1N. & it didnt suit my needs. But.. the page wont allow me to proceed on if i dun choose a package, when there was only one package availabe, and it doesnt even suits?!
ah! whatever.
& the current problem is that if i books online, it will cost $30 more, and i will have to trouble my sis by asking her to make her way down to book for us, since there is such rule which says that the owner of the card must book PERSONALLY, and does not allow to book on behalf.
&& there's still one more prob. We havent found anyone to help us pay the cost for the chalet first. So am i supposed to ask my sis to help me pay first? But wat if the rest doesnt even bother to pay? I dun wanna ask her.. cause i think that shes helping so much already. Guess what, i hope that she comes and read this post, and i can save my 尴尬 towards her. The best is that she offers to sponsor on the whole thing, AHAHAHAH! LOL. NO WAY! I will reject her even if she really offers.

Currently, we have:
9 ppl staying for both nights,
2 ppl staying over for 1 night,
4 ppl going for both days,
2 ppl going for 1 day,
6 ppl confirmed not going,
and 17 ppl not comfirmed / havent ask.

2007-11-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

edited.
The secret is finally revealed. LOL.

haizz.. Tml still got cca sia! So tiring sia.. Having it at 7.30 am! Siao larh!
13 nov: 7.30- 11am
14 n0v:2-5 pm
15 nov: 7.30- 11am
16nov- 16dec: BREAK! (:
17 dec: 7.30- 11am
18 dec: 7.30- 11am
21 dec: 2- 5 pm
26 dec: 2-5pm
27 dec: 7.30- 11am
28 dec: 2-5 pm
WTH. So many days in the morning! I HATE THAT!

2007-11-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

I have a very very very very veryyyyyyyyy bad news. My dad dun allow me to stay overnight for the class chalet. He say no adult there, later what 不三不四 de things happen and whatever. He everytime say my friends and whatever not 3 not 4 de leh.. The main point is: HE DOESNT EVEN GIVE ME A LITTLE TRUST! Thats why i tends to go against him. Mum says that he was afraid that i will smoke, drink, and do that thing. Ya! Whatever he says! He says he will beat me to death if i smokes, and yet he himself is down there smoking! He asks me to keep my own shoe, and yet he wants me to keep his shoe for him! WHAT KIND OF DADDY IS THIS?! Im intending to wake up tonight, to sharpen a knife, and wait for him till he comes back home, then i shall chop his meat off, mince it, and put it into the fridge for mum to cook. LOL. But.. I think that he will let me go after all. He everytime also say this kind of things, and turn up letting me go in the end. I am so damn frustrated and sad when he said that he was not letting me go. Arh!
Whatever it is, i shall persuade him until he lets me go! Im CONFIDENT that he WILL let me go!

2007-11-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

Had netball training today. It was not tough today. Actually, I should that training was never tough, it was jus rather tiring. Training may be fun, may be not - It all depends on coach's mood. Coach's mood today is acceptable, so training wasnt tough today. The part which I DISLIKE MOST IS THE 2.4KM RUN. I JUS HATE TO RUN CAN!

IM SO DISAPPOINTED WIF APRIL TAM PAK KEI! She didnt ever gave her trust to me, i realised. How and why on earth will I lie to you?! It doesnt benefits me too! FROM NOW ON, I SHALL KEEP ALL THAT I KNOW TO MYSELF! I SHALL GIVE U FALSE INFOS! LOL. :P

Hmm.
Meeting Hui & April at 1.oopm at mac tml, to discuss on the class chalet! (:

2007-11-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

*yawn*.
Time for bed.
But shall type my last few sentences.
Today is KELLY'S BIRTHDAY!
Opps! It supposedly should be ytd.
Cause now is already 07/11/07
Knowing that its ur bdae is not a good thing,
Cause it means that u've grown older.
hah (: LOL.

haizz.
this week tue, wed & fri got cca sia..
So chiong sia..
Supposedly, we should have training on mon too.
But since we were not informed,
its cancelled.
Next week everyday also got cca sia!!
SIAO LARH!
DUN NEED SLEEP ONE ARH?!
LOL.

okay. good night. -_- zzzzz

2007-11-03T15:55:00.001+08:00

i've nothing to write.
Im aching all over now, after ytd's training.
Oh.
Holiday is real boring without money, and without a place for us to go.
I want a job.

2007-11-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.
i wonder what to update.
i wonder if i should be sad or happy tat my appealing was unsuccessful.
i wonder wat would happen nxt yr.
i wonder if my blah for blah will blah or blah.
i wonder if blah will still blah.
im actually very sad, but i was mentally prepared for it.
im afraid for the times without blah.
im afraid that i might just forget him one day, one place; at that very moment.
im afraid that i will stop thinking bout him.
im not confident that i will hold on.
but i really wanna wait for that day to come.
So i really wonder..
There's so much things for me to wonder, for me to think, and for me to be afraid of.
Im actually a busy person, okay?
Im not one who onli noe how to sleep.
I need to slp, to get for all those fears!
And yet there are sooo many things waiting for me!
And now u finally know y i've got so many pimples and white hair?
Its because im so busy thinking!
Im trying to crack my brain, just as how hard Mr Kong did!
Nobody ever knows that im so busy.

I've updated, April. (:

2007-10-26T02:15:00.000+08:00

Today, 26/10/07.
Im here to announce that today is the very last day of sch,
wif 2/6'07.
this 2 yrs, 1/6; 2/6
we went through lots and lots.
we lie to teachers together,
we get punishments as one,
we tried to support each other when we fall.
But this class will nv be 2/6 anymore.
we will be goin into separate ways.
Try recalling the situation on 3/1/06.
we were all strangers.

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To my close friends:
Thank you for all ur supports all along.
U guys are really my best friends.
Our relationship are not built within one month or two months,
but 2 yrs; 24 months.
yes, sometimes we quarrelled over small matters.
but our friendship bond was so strong that no one could break it.
we company each other by their side whenever they feel weak,
we were most willing to lend each other a listening ear.
Recalling, we did not leave a really memorable memory.
But when we were preparing for exams,
i tend to fall asleep.
den u guys will keep on asking me to STUDYYYYY.
Even tam pak kei.
She even changed her views of bowling and attempt to try,
Under our encouragements and force-ments.
Think, will u ever have such a good friend like me, us?
hahah (: LOL
okay. Whatever it is, thank you for being my friend.
-----

I really really, truly truly hope that i will get into 3/5.
but i dun wan that girl in the same class!
gosh.
i hate to share my 'things' wif others.

i never ever knew that i loved u so much, until 25/10/07.
and how am i goin to forget u?

2007-10-17T09:13:00.000+08:00

At com lab now!
im totally lost.

2007-09-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

its so long since i updated.
haizz..
exam is so stressful..
although i dun study..
but thats y im stressed!
i know exam is coming,
but i jus dun wanna study..
im afraid tat i might get poor results.
but wat to do?
haizz..
ytd is really a shocking day for me.

2007-09-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

this post will be full of pics.
i had been not putting up pics for a long time.
so jus put them up all at once lor.
almost all are taken by kelly.
ive been spending all the time after sch this few days wif her.
we everyday also loiter until 8+ sia.
i feel like im starting to become so rebellion..

i was looking at my frinch.

zilianed. but kelly's cam is too slow. so it took down when i was already looking at her.

side view!

reflections!

kelly's plucking white hair for me.

2007-08-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

APRIL, PLS DUN CRY.

haiz..
all ended.
everything is end soon.
2/6 is goin to end.
CAMP!
so many memories were created during camp.
haizz..
so sad ):
I LOVE 2/6!!!
the love cant be described.
we all know how it feels.
2 years of loves, sweat, happiness, punishments and everything.
its all worth it.
the mass debrief was so damn meaningful!
such single but meaningful words make us cry like hell..
as if someone died or something..
& i never knew tat i would cry over such things..
the song is meaningsful itself.
haizzz.
2/6 is coming to an end.
through the camp,
we've learnt to love each other more.
but wats the use?
time doesnt allow..everything.
haizz..
we've went through so much wind & rain.
but....
this class full of atmosphere, laugher, shoutings, screamings, fightings, dao bok-ings,
is just goin to become memories.
memories makes ppl cry, even if its good ones.
we're all goin towards separate ways.
haizz..
i dun see the fun that we get, from other classes.
i love 2/6! (:
so we can onli cherish wat we hav now.
camp is so fun!! (:
I LIKE KAYAKING & NATURE RUMBLE! ;D

2007-08-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

haizz..
shubin not goin tml.
den i got no partner liao..
will be a lonely freak.
haizz..
i realli hope that she'll go..
realli...
i realli hope to see her tml..
i dun feel like goin le larh..
all because of her!
mood spoiler!
walao..
she ruined the whole image.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so sad!
haizz.....

2007-08-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

omg!!
CAMP!!
last time we were still like..camp,camp, pls quickly come!
but now we're wondering y time past so fast.

walao..
i wed so damn bad luck sia!
kanna scolding by miss zee..
wtf larh.
she nv shout at xinying, nv shout at huannrong, nv shout at shubin.
but shouted at me!!!
they also nv do marh.
i ans ur qns den u come scold me!
she asked shubin:" wheres ur essay?"
den she looked at me:" wheres ur essay?"
den shubin just treated it like- not my business- like that.
den i reply miss zee larh!
i said:" i didnt do."
den she start roaring at me liao..
as if everything was my fault like that!
i answer also wrong!
dun ans also cannot!
ONE DAY, I WILL SIT ON U!!
den after tat also kanna scolding from coach!
cause we go & eat during break,
& we were not told that we're not allowed to eat during break time!
walao..
aiya..
but it was somehow our fault..
but shes biased!
i hate biased ppl.

2007-08-10T11:15:00.000+08:00

wed was soo fun!
not the national day celebration.
is the outing wif them.
April,hui,haifaa,walter,jianxiong,nafiis,eugeneyeo & hongyuan.
had a great time!
im addicted wif bowling!
tat eugeneyeo!
laugh at me!
haha ;D
but jianxiong, eugene & hongyuan left at 3.
hope to go bowling again! (:
went to west mall after tat.
ate KFC.
& nafiis advertised the zinger meal!
haha =P
went arcade after tat.
i screamed like a mad.
tat game was fun!
ahahahahh
...
had dinner after that.
treat from aunt (:
tat attitude waitress.
wth..
i jus dislike attitude ppl.

today did the hist. project wif xinying & shubin.
ytd too, plus huannrong.
did the props at my house.
it was fun, but tiring.
tml still goin over to hui's house!
but still got alot of hmwk sia..
& the HE project still havent do..
sian..
i hate mon the most.
cause got lit, HE, & sci.
need to face that sci teacher.
but i think we're changing e teacher le.
finally done wif her.

btw, our netball team didnt qualify for the 2 round.
bcoz we lost to that outram sec.
cause of tat biased umpire.
haiz..
coach say our speed too slow.
so from now on, we're goin to go for a 5 rounds round the school.

2007-08-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

today so boring sia.
no cca.
because of the NDP practice.
everytime also do the same thing de.
see until sian liao.
haizz..
nowadays so many homework sia.
so stressed up.
but not onli that.
still got a lot of things troubling me..
..
the mrs lim, that maths teacher, teach until so sibei fast larh!
she taught us how to do 4 qns nia..
den go on to next chapter liao le!
further more this is a difficult chapt. ; mensuration.
& we're goin to have a test on tue!
siao larh!
i've got confidence that i will........fail this test.
okay larh.
dun say fail larh.
lets say.. i CONFRIM will NOT get full marks for this test.
still got sci test on mon.
haizz.
i really dunno wat to believe in.
haiz..
why do all the things u do appears different from wat i think u r?
i never expected u would do such things to her.
but y?
y did u do all those?
i really got no idea y u did all this!!!!
r u realli wat who i noe?
i dun look so bad to me. but y r u doing so?
u everytime also say u scared to loss such a friend like me.
but y u always disappoint me?
everytime when i ask u y u did this, u will say u dunno.
even u also dunno, how do u expect me to understand?
everytime i see u, talk to u, i dun feel that u're such person.
but the fact is tat u did that!
y? i thought that she is also ur good friend?!
im afraid that 1 day i might realli regret making such a friend like u.
im utterly disappointed wif u.
but since u said that i made the wrong choice; to choose u as my friend, u did y made things show that i realli made th wrong choice?
~~i dunno.~~
~~wa. i feel like crying sia.~~

the more u _______,the more i feel like i like u(deeper & deeper),but the more i feel like my like for u one-sided. isit good or bad? i dunno.

2007-07-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

had netball carnival today!
each match onli last for 10 mins.
so this is called netball carnival.
EVER 1ST MATCH WON IN MY LIFE,
VS JUNYUAN SEC!
score: 4 - 2
although the difference not so big,
but we still WON!
before the match,
coach said:"this one can win 1 larh.. they quite aherm 1.."
...
lost the 2nd match.
3-4
wtf.
the umpire keep on blowing me obstruction sia!
but im keeping 3 feets away frm her!
got once i never even raise my hand,
that stupid, biased umpire also blow me!
wt!
she keep on pinning me down larh!
i sibei buai shong lor!
wtf!
haiz.. lost.
den match over liao le..
den we go sit together.
at first i was still wanting to ask coach y that umpire keep on blowing at me,
despite keeping the 3 feets.
but before i could ask her, she said:
"ive got TOTALLY NO IDEA y the umpire keep on blowing u for obstruction,
i dun even see an obstruction! but we cant argue wif her. so its not ur fault."
i felt like im so maligned larh!
i did nth wrong rite!
so sad.
the more i think, the more i feel like crying.
the more i feel like crying, the more i laugh.
the more i laugh, the more the tears are in my eyes.
yes. i cried. i totally hate that kind of feeling.
everytime i cry, i'll laugh.
cause i feel like im so foolish.
no point crying.
but the tears jus wanna come out.
den they were like there saying:" y u cry? dun cry larh."
these makes me wanna cry more larh....
i had this experience before.. during th start of this year?
against i dunno wat sch.
okay. watever. biased freak.
3rd match won too.
4-3 or 4-2.
4th match was 4-3.
won too!
we're supposed to have 6 matches.
but when we're bout to go for our 5th match,
the rain came falling down.
so we went into the shelter & waited for it to stop.
but after that the annoucement said that there will be lightnings striking until bout 2.45.
so postpone to 5th august, next sun.
sunday leh!
& im down wif sore throat.
so unbearable sia.
wanna talk also cannot.
plus i got a bit of flu.

2007-07-22T17:27:00.000+08:00

for own reference.
lyrics for when there was me and you.

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you.

PICTURES TIME!

this bird was found in the sch.
a malay guy found it.
its injured.
so poor thing sia )=
den mdm rosna say:" Put it back in the pigeon hole."
haha!
got the joke?

we're mad.

2007-07-22T15:14:00.000+08:00

today is leibing's bdae!
i forgot bout it.
but my heart told me tat today is someone's bdae.
but i jus cant remember who isit,
until i saw the email.

hmm..
mon..
HE.
quite enjoyable.
even though got a little bit sian.
haha(:
i sat down &... wa!
hahahaha ;D

tue.
nth special.

wed.
netball. again.
e same old routine again.
went mac after that.
so near yet so far. so far yet so near.

thurs.
sian.
MT supp again.

fri.
NO SOCCER!
as in no PE.
got netball.
after tat went mac wif nicole.
its sooo long since i went mac wif her.

2007-07-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

today is such a nice day! (:
PE today.
played soccer.
made my shoes dirty onli =.="
i dun like soccer all rite..
wt.
i pass e ball to sb,
den she nv catch it also my fault!
wtf!
still keep on looking at other places!
~~i should hav kicked e ball onto her.~~
okay. fine! forget it.
went bac to class.
den joel & zhengkai said they want change seats wif us.
im okay wif it.
since huannrong & xinying were sitting infront! :D
shubin also nv say anything.
so changed lor.
den after that she kept on complaining that she wanna change bac..
den i say:" u wan u tell them larh."
den she will like say:" nevermind..."
den after that she complained again.
say wat teacher will scold us & blah blah.
ya larh..
i also not 100% like to sit there.
cause of 1 reason.
but sit there can lean on the pillar(where the switches are).
very comfortable.
but den the 8 ppl behind were very noisy.
especially joel.
so terribly noisy.
opps.
shh =x
okay.
go back to my point.
den that sb so damn timid sia!!!!!
keep on saying teacher will catch/scold us for changing seats.
okay! i told them.
but den like break them up so bad sia.
so i say we change bac onli during those fierce fierce teacher's class.
e.g. miss zee. =x
but sb went on..
she say wat.. she wanna change bac seat!
walao.
den i say:" u wan u go tell them larh!"
yes. my reply were the same.
den she say:" haiya.. nvm larh."
she everytime also like that.. tats y i say shes timid/afraid to talk to th guys.
as if they will eat her up.
LOL.
i mean like we're classmates!
but if there's some special reasons i can understand larh..
e.g. u like tat person.
but she dun!!
shes a good example of wat mr kong said during the assembly.
he said:" if u keep on rejecting challenges, this dun wan, that dun dare, u will NV grow!"
i truely agree.
i went past that too, somehow.
okay. go bac to my point..
den she say nvm liao..
i replied her:" u say de hor.. 不要把张赖在我头上 hor !"
den she nv say anything liao le.
hmm..
cca time.
went for 3 rounds around the court.
den went up to 4/3 classroom to do cip.
so super hungry sia..
after that went mac wif nicole& audrey to wait for hui & april.
den we ate a medium fries, got a fried fly inside.
eww..
so we went to th counter to tell them.
they returned us our money.
den dunno y after that they gave us another free fries!
which means we ate 2 free medium fries today!
& my mum said that the two ppl who went into the kitchen were from the ministry of health.
den the mac scared we go tell that two ppl that got fly in our food.
den they use another medium fries to stuff our mouths.
went home..
mum needs to go to a funeral.
so left me alone.
den i went to sleep at 7.
slp, slp & slp.
until 12.20?
until i say a light source.
i thought my bro came bac.
it was my mother.
i nv expected myself to slp until so late sia..
im a pig!

hmm..
let me recall..
okay. thurs.
went visit April .
but didnt get to see her.
den we went to buy bubbletea.
den went home.
& somehow quarrelled wif sb.
jus cause i sat on her chair & refused to return it to her?
walao..
so xiao qi sia!
as if her butt is made of gold.
ask her to take my chair also refused!
i think that isthat ur butt is not worth for my chair larh!
lol..
still tell huannrong loudly:" 被人家讲到都没有心情 liao le!"
wtf larh!
pls lor!
i nv even say her a single bit!
dunno how to structure a sentence!
asshole.
im sososososososososo angry!
but i don wanna quarrel wif her.
so i told myself to relax! relax!

wed.
cca day.
suffered alot.
coach was not happy wif us.
so made us do a lot of static holds.
my hand rubbed until the dryed blood/skin also came off.
so pain sia..

tue.
music.
im so lousy!
im not able to catch up wif them.
i wanna quit!
i wan go sing.

mon.
went home at 7.45pm.
cause went mac wif kelly after the AMQ.

2007-07-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

yay!!
finally done wif the lit project.
haiz..
but still got history.
maths IPW also coming up.
sian diao..
today so hyper active sia..
my brain juice used up le.
need to charge first.
LOL.
ytd hui, april & shubin came my house do project.
hui & april were sooo scared of my hamster!! =x
hahaha!!!
haizz..
tml still got HE..
i havent do the hmwk sia..
still got chinese compo sia.
im off!

2007-07-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

hmm..
i totally hate chinese.
2 reasons.
1st is because i dun like the teacher.
2nd is ...
LOL(;
today's netball training was so tough.
no tough actually.
but i jus cant do things nicely.
e.g. dodging.
haizz.
we played match.
2-2.
coach was very angry.
sec 1 vs sec 2.
& same score, meaning same standard.
haizz.
so coach made us do the static hold again.
arh!!
i hate that.
so tired.
walao..
somemore still do on th rough rough court.
our hands all become 'smooth' le..
LOL.
haizz..
after that went mac.
discussed on lit project.
decided on an idea! (:
finally.
tml still meeting at 1.30 at mac to do the actual thing out.
wtf.
sb nv even do anything lor!!
she got think of an idea.
but she onli told me the idea.
she dun wan tell april & hui her idea,
means that she got no idea lor..
den she keep on asking us to think of an idea.
say wat she wan go home..
den its like..
she nv think still ask us to think!
i dun wanna group up wif her.
but ive got no choice.
wats done cant be undone.
grh..
she like totally nv contribute at all larh!!!!
grhhhhhhhhhhh
i will bear wif her.
okay larh..
dun say until she so bad.
later she sees this i will confirm die liao..
but this place is my freedom of speech marh..
but still, some things r better to be confidential larh..

& coach say we would be goin for a netball carnival?
all the schools would be there.
12 schools.
but obviously sg dun onli hav 12 schools larh.
so i should say.. all schools tat got netball as a cca.
i think so.

hmm..
today's PE cancelled.
so sian diao.
april & i had been waiting for this period for sooo long..
in the end.. dun hav!!
.......

2007-07-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

finally free to online!

hmm..
mon was fun!!
went to play billard!!
but i was sooo tired.

tue.. wat happened?
oh ya..
went for th Australian Maths Quiz.
luckily got ruth to accompany me.
but the lesson was onli revision.
we were given a 20 qns paper.
i was still there thinking..
"20 qns need to use 3 hrs to finish?"
but in the end,
after 3 hrs, i havent even do finish the paper..
ahahah(:
lol..
still left wif 80 qns(4 classes) to e real quiz..
its not a good thing to be good in maths.
y do th ones better in maths (onli) suffer, instead of those who are not that good in maths?
it seems unfair.
those weaker ones dun hav remedial.
instead, those better ones hav?!?!??!?
ridiculous man..

wed..
ytd.
got netball training.
ran for 2 rounds onli!!
all thanks to serene!! :D
we made coach sooo angry when we were doin e dodging thingy.
after that played match.
played as GD again.
they said that i did a great job!!
im so happy (;
ahaahhaahahahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!
no larh..
cause th GA is sec 1 de marh..
but she realli very good at dodging.
& i stepped on her feet.. not in purpose!
oh.. im sorry!

okay.
today.
1st period kanna scolding liao.
caught talking.
but teacher onli scolded me.
i cant possibly be talking to myself!!
but sb did apologise to me larh, which i didnt expect tat she would! =x
IM STARTING TO ~~HATE~~ GEO!
& INSTEAD, IM LOVING HISTORY?!?!?!
Its got to do with e teacher.
haizz.
i miss ms fu!
i dun wan that new chinese teacher!!
even though i think that this teacher teaches better.
..after sch still got e chinese supp. 3-4.30.
after that went to mac to discuss on our project.
left mac at 6.30+.
...
PE tmr!!!
this week seem to pass so fast.
hmm.. goin to bed!
if not my white hair will increase.
btw, i saw wei li today!!
ahah!!
hes still tat small.
i was buying smth..
den i saw him past by me.
den i look back, den he look bac also..
den i look away..
den look back again..
he also look bac..
den i smiled.
lol(:
hmm..
today my future bro-in-law came to our house eat.
he asked me if i dyed my hair.
is there realli a big difference?

why cant u let me off'?
ur sight realli makes my heart irresistible.

2007-07-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

done e maths hmwk!!
its so challenging & fun!!!
i love maths! <3<3<3
ahahah.
lame.
hmm..
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR! (:

2007-07-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

IQ test!

hmm..
today at first goin to grandma house de.
but daddy met wif an accident.
hes not injured.
but th car is.
so need to take th car to repair.
so dun need go le!
haha
cause last week go liao le marh..
go ther also nth to do de..
go there will onli increase wrinkles.
cause my cousin will ask me some ~~stupid~~ qns =X

2007-06-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

today so sian..
mum was actually wanting to babysit a baby.
but it was unsuccessful.
haizz..
no baby to play wif :(
...
forgot to write some things ytd.
ive injured my right thumb.
cause i was wanting to catch th ball from th stepped down senior.
but her ball was so strong!
i couldnt stop it!
instead, i injured myself.
im so lousy.
& I HATE HEMA !!!!!!!!!!
as in sec 3 de pls!!
th netball de.
so bu yao lian lah pls.
..
& im selected for th Australian maths quiz.
it starts next tue.
means i dun need to attend th creative writing!!
wee! :D
..
hmm..
i saw th friendster horoscope ytd.
it somehow says:" others dun hav th stamina u hav. dun expect them to like some things as much as u do."
i think.
& today's is:
"The Bottom Line
The only way to achieve a good outcome to this situation is to face your fears.

In Detail
All the transitions you've been going through lately are not helping to create balance in your life, and today is a good day to put some effort into getting things back in order. Try to stop moving from point to point (or person to person) in search of an answer -- because you'll have to figure this one out on your own. The only way to achieve a good outcome to this situation is to face your fears. You will soon see that they are easy to defeat (or just learn to live with)."

do i exactly noe wat its talking bout?
..
oh yes.
I CANT WAIT FOR MON!!
goin to th museum.
but its named as a factory.
i wonder y.
wee!!
after tt goin to ben's house for billard!!!!!!!!!!
yayayay!!

2007-06-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

hmm..
lets start wif mon.
hmm..
sch reopened!
1st day onli..
got hmwk liao..
after sch, went to lot 1.
april & manting were mad over e necklace.
but they no money, so went back on tue to buy it.
th 7-11 store was sooooooooooo stingy!!
we nearly vomited.
but e other ppl all like nv smell anything like that lei..
but got one guy smelled it too.
it means we were not th abnormal ones.
...
tue got creative writing.
...
wed.
cca.
we ran outside.
so tired.
die outside also no ppl noe..
LOL
hmm..
played netball wif th jap. guys..
we were like.. boys on th right, girls on th left.
a guy scared me out of my soul.
i was wanting to shoot, den he jus stood infront of me & look at me.
den i also look at him..
den we both went stunned.
haha;D
mdm rosna saw it too!
& beeting hitted th ball against my nose.
i wonder if it had become flatter. LOLS.
hmm..
they go le, we onli played matches.
...
thurs, ytd.
wat happened?
oohhh..
ytd got assembly.
after tat went mac wif manting, april & kelly.
manting & april left first.
kelly & i talked quite alot.
left mac at 7.30.
it had been long since we loitered together.
but now got a lot of things she dunno..
haizz.
i believe one day we will become like e past again.
1 day.
haha
today..
got netball again.
ran for th 4 rounds.
i think we walked for 1 & 1/2 rounds?
through th lead of celine + sheryllyn!
not tired.
after traing met april & hui go watch ccks idol for a while.
den went mac awhile.
left at 6.30.

2007-06-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
today went mac chit chat again.
arh!!
still got so many hw havent do!!
still havent revise sci for th re-exam!
hai yo..
i dun wan sch reopen larh!
sian diao..
my brain rust liao le.
haizzz..
not in study mood now.

2007-06-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

hmm..
today went to do cip..
hui must be over th moon(:
haha =x
after that, went mac chit chat.
.....
homed.
wanted to slp.
but didnt.
pepper's dinner time!!
carrot + vege, again.
today pepper totally scared my out of my soul!!!
i fed it.
den it stood on its cage door.
i was refilling its nut.
den, suddenly, it jumped in to th cage!
okay larh.. nvm.. but th worst thing is,
it sat under its wheel & didnt move!!!
i kept on caling:" pepper! pepper! pepper! pepper!!!"
but no reaction frm it!!!!
omg!
den i took a stick to move it.
it moved, but through my strength.
it didnt move by itself!!
its eyes were so damn big!!
so scary!!!!!!!!!!!
den, it blinked its left eye.
but after that no reaction liao.
i dare not touch it wif my bare hands.
cause im thinking that its dead!!
normally when its slping,
if i go touch it,
it will jump away.
but this time, it got no reaction!!!
i asked my bro to come & look at it.
i was soooo~~~~ afraid that its dead!!
den i'll become a murderer?
LOL.
its my life. my dearest.
i looked at it.. i realli felt so lost.
ive totally NO idea y it was so stunned!
den, i saw it blinking its right eye!
den my bro said it moved it butt!!!
ahahaah!!
its not dead!!
it lift up its head!!
yes. i cried out of joy.
it was so weak!
it walked so slowly.
i felt like i did not take good care of it.
i felt so sad.
den we gave it food.
it ate.
it must be hungry or somehow.
but it jus ate before it become so guai.
maybe it did not hav breakfast & lunch today..
it was so scared of me.
& i dunno y.
I LOVE PEPPER!
hmm..
tml meeting april & hui again.
11am at mac.
got smth to tell me?
i wonder wat is it.

2007-06-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

haizzz.
today nv go out le.
cancelled.
cause ben say so little ppl, y not another time.
haizz.
billard!!
byebye.
after all im still not able to convince april tam.
haizz.............
no choice.
stay at home read th flour babies.
i dun get a single bit of th story.
haizz.
if i noe this was goin to happen, i'll rather netball was not cancelled.
haizz.
next time ba(:
wait until jarrold thy all r free.
but thy will snatch th billard table frm me!!!
hmm..
but if thy dun go, i also cannot go.
cause thy dun go, april dun go.
april dun go, hui dun go.
hui dun go, ben will say next time again, so i cannot go.
so if i got go, will definitely got ppl snatch th table frm me...
but thy nv go really very sian.
nvm.. at least i finally gt time to do sch work.

2007-06-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

NETBALL CANCELLED!
im happy.
but im sad too.
happy because:
1)no netball!
2)can go play billard!!

but sad is because:
1)th time slot onli 12-2pm no ppl.
2)april & hui maybe not goin. if on of them not goin, another one will not go also.
3) th guys all not goin.
4) dunno jianxiong & buddha goin anot. PLS!! GO!!!
5)havent do homework!!!
6)havent read Flour Babies.
7)IM JUS SAD :( cause i thought that tmr would be a fun day.
who knows no one is goin.
i realli wished them to go.
but its very hard to convince them.
somemore mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de.

haizz.
but no matter wat, i will be goin!!
i dun care!!!
i jus wanna play billard!
hmm, at least i've got kelly to accompany me..
& most probably xinying is goin too!
~~but i jus dun understand..~~
~~y no one go, we cannot go ourselves?~~
~~we can go there play billard + chit chat marh..~~
haizz.

i've realli learned to be myself.
i very bao chi xing xiang de.
but now, i do watever i wanna do, as in, in front of friends.
I LOVE BEING MYSELF!!!!

2007-06-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

lyrics for Never Let You Go.

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same,
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything that day

I can't, believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go.

2007-06-20T12:46:00.000+08:00

haizz.
so sian..
today need to stay at home rot.
hui & april go out wif their family.
so left me.. alone
today is such a nice day for billard!
but th guys got cca..
so tml lor..
10am - 2pm.
& my netball training ends at 11am.
but confirm will release later de..
cause th past trainings all like that marh.
hmm..
after 2pm, goin ice skating.
& i hav no idea how to skate!
arh!!
i think im goin to bring lots of injures bac home!
LOL
uploading pics in process!

makeups on!

...........................................................

reborning process.

oh!! it stinks~~ "straightener cream"

this is "neutralising cream".
it CERTAINLY smells nicer.

TH END.

2007-06-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

today got netball training.
i was late.
but still havent start yet.
some more got ppl even later.
i hate th 4 rounds around th sch.
used th basketball court & volleyball court.
cause th netball court was used for th drama camp.
so tired.
still need to "dance".
used th volleyball court to play match.
so small larh!
i went off-site.
but th umpire didnt saw it.
ahah(:
started at 9.00 offically.
cause coach told us some things.
ended at 11.47
haizz.
nicole backout~ed.
she say she goin for training.
but she nv go.
i call her, she off~ed her phone.
hmm.
thurs got a match wif dunearn sec.
sian diao.
so tired..
lookking forward for th next billard game!
maybe wed, thurs or fri!

2007-06-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS SOOOOOO FUN!!!!!
HAHA :D
at first we all didnt feel like goin de.
but better den staying at home marh..
so go lor.
okay.
11am, supposed to meet april,hui & kelly at lot 1.
but as usual, im late.
so met them in th arcade.
april played DDR again.
den ben say kk they all coming..
sian diao.
they come liao le need to bao chi xing xiang liao.
after that went to food court to eat my paper prata!!
its realli paper.
den went to ben's condo.
we were all so sotong.
we missed th stop.
april still there:" a a a a a a a .."
i was like thinking:" is this building a school or a condo or wat.." until i saw th "yew mei" words on th leaf.
so we walked back..
waited for ben to bring us in..
went into th room..
but th guys keep on playing th billard..
so we jus sat there & see them play.
they r so damn pro siah.
they keep on playing, playing & playing.
but at least we still got a chance to play larh.
played wif jarrold UNWILLINGLY.
so paiseh.
i so lan!
but i still WON!!!
ahahahahahahahah!!
eeyer.
nv ask him to take off one clothe!
LOL
not i good, is that he made himself lose.
played wif hui too!!
but i lost.
she made every ball difficult for me!
& i gave her th last ball!!
grh!!
nvm.
i need go train my accuracy first.
use bamboo stick!
LOL
after that went lot 1 wif hui & april.
waited for esther.
homed at bout 6.40
.........
ytd,
went to take a family photo at a studio.
cause big sis graduate frm poly.
had make-up on.
credits: big sis.
zilianed of course.
but next post ba.
after tat, had dinner (:

2007-06-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

SOBSOB =(
april say she tml maybe not goin..
pls larh!!
april!!
pls go!!!
u can go there play uno wif hui marh!!!
at most u all wan play wat i also play narh!
at most i dun become tired larh!!
pls! pls! pls!
haizz.
勉强是没有幸福的.
but i still hope that NO one WOULD GO SHOPPING WIF APRIL TAM TML!!!!

2007-06-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

I was hearing this song today, when reborning hair.
foung it meaningful.
heres th lyrics for S.H.E.- 怎么办

怎么办
哦怎么办
为什么你为什么
老是把空气全都吸光了
害得我你害得我
在你面前呼吸急促需要叫救护车
别看我先别看我
我的脸红就快要爆料了
没什么哪有什么
我是绝对不会承认我喜欢你了
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙
你怎么可以这样笑容打败太阳
甚至比我还要更好看
我虽然无力抵挡但是日子还长
总有一天换你为我疯狂
为什么你为什么
这样不讲理的就出现了
害得我你害得我
连仅有的一点矜持优雅全都毁了
靠近我别靠近我
到底离你多近比较好呢
完蛋了我完蛋了
我整个人眼看就快不是我的了
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙

☆☆music☆☆
你怎么可以这样笑容打败太阳
甚至比我还要更好看
我虽然无力抵挡但是日子还长
总有一天换你为我疯狂
为我疯狂
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙
你怎么可以这样笑容打败太阳
甚至比我还要更好看
我虽然无力抵挡但是日子还长
总有一天换你为我疯狂
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙
你怎么可以这样笑容打败太阳
甚至比我还要更好看
我虽然无力抵挡但是日子还长
总有一天换你为我疯狂
怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙

2007-06-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

hmm..
today reborned hair.
but not straight..
haizz.
it still stinks like th previous time.
ewwww
haizz.
still troubling over th bbq thingy.
last time is food.
now is money.
decided that everyone will pay $8.
den th rest we will pay..
that quite a lot.
some still refused to pay!!!!!!
might as well we pay all!!!!
we r not that rich!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we organise, we crack our brains, & now we still need to pay more.
okay.. im not saying that i dun wanna pay.
it was OUR fault to buy so much food.
WE WERE TO BE BLAMED.
I SWEAR THAT THIS WILL BE TH 1ST & TH VERY LAST TIME I ORGANISE SUCH GATHERINGS THAT CONCERNS MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

hmm.
im over th moon after th ytd thingy.
haha. april noe wat im talking bout.

hmm.
planning to go over his house play billard again.
calling th whole class too.
but we onli putting th notice up on th class blog.
those who sees it good lor, nvr see den too bad lor.
...
i hope time could go bac to 14th june 2007.
ytd go home le i keep on feeling like my legs r floating on th water.
LOL.

hmm, today i slept until 1.33pm, when i received hui's call.
i was supposed to meet her at 1.30 to return her her wallet.
she left it wif me.
i was so damn lucky.
hui called me saying tat she forgot tat we were supposed to meet too.
hahas =]
lucky lucky! :)

2007-06-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

YTD was sooosososoooo unforgettable!!! :)
even though th bbq was somehow unsuccessful,
total- 12 ppl back out~ed + 2 un-invited ppl = 16 ppl present.
still got so much overleft.
cause we bought th food enough for 26 ppl.
which means that th overlefts are enough for 10 ppl.
all th organiser was still thinking that th food may NOT be enough.
I realli ENJOYED th water splashing!!
so fun!!!
got myself all wet.
i love th leg splashing!
i splashed hui until even her hair also wet.
haha=)
but april was so not on.
..
I WANNA PLAY POOL!!!
ytd i when i play, onli left wif 30 mins.
but i got play larh!
den onli 4 balls went in.
& these four r all th white ball that arent supposed to go in.
den after tat th 4 boys came,
so paiseh.
so nv play le.
sian diao.
so we go play th 'zhong ji mi ma',
while april, manting & esther went to buy a cake for jianxiong.
& they came bac wif a SUPER small cake,
wif a spiderman on it :)
den th candle keep on dropping..
..
den hui & me go th pool there play.
the security cannot see us.
hahaha!
we went into th water.
den xinying & hui go splashed me until my whole body wet liao.
den hui so wet liao..so she went in to swim.
den she say she too wet liao.
so nv go back to th bbq pit.
i went bac to help to clear th rubbish.
..
den still got so many rubbish.
so we distributed 'presents' to them.
haha=)
after that some ppl went home,
some of us stayed to play 'true or dare'.
but we onli play lil bit onli.
den th 4 boys came bac.
den april,chuhui, yihui, fiona, xinying & i went to th pool again.
we companied april to wait for her parents.
after that she say bring us home.
so we decided to sit april's daddy's car home!!
hmm.
waited for quite long.
waited until 11?
th 4 boys+ benjamin were there too.
at least we got some guys to 'protect' us.
LOL

2007-06-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

hmm.
midnight le.
juz now went to chinatown.
bought not much things,
but they costed mummy a bomb.
LOL.

okay.
ytd reborned hair during midnight.
y no one tell me th 'straightener cream' like shit!!???
ya, maybe even worst~er.
okay.
it took effect.
straight, but not so straight.
sis say she wanna redo it.
she say we should hav let th cream stay longer.
so we bought th cream again.
decided to do it on this sat,
despite th instruction saying if we wanna do anything to our hair,
e.g. perm, reborn, need to wait for at least 1 week.
hmm.
i think i need to get myself a clip to clip my nose.

pic time again.

yummy!! dessert!! i love it!! =p
1.
oh!! its without pants!!
2.
strip!! strip!! haha=)
3.
hmm, its raining..
4.
5.
haha!! its covering it below!! hahas=)
but its seriously CUTE!!!

oh! its got a BALL!!

Patrick!!

uh.. Ah Meng.

2007-06-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

grh!!
ANGRYANGRYANGRY!!!!!
we did soooo damn much for th bbq!!
but no one like appreciate or understand!!
wth.
den now more & more ppl not goin.
walao.
we spent SOOOO much time on it.
+++++ so much strength!!!
they juz sit there kiao ka can liao.
still say dun wan go!!

2007-06-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

hmm.
later goin to grandma's house.
haizz.
today nv reborn le.
tml.
i doubt its goin to success.
haiz.
watever.
...
hmmm,
zilian~ed.

CROPPED~ becoz cause my hand was there. ruined th whole pic.

ONE DAY, someone will complete this heart for me.
ya.
1 day..
haha(:
hmm.
th pics r bigger.
cause last time i use small de.
now use medium de.

2007-06-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

okay.
today spent whole day on my blog.
so sian.
nothing to do.
did some changes to th fonts.
& add th 'ridiculouss-love.blogspot.com' on top.
I realised th previous blogskin & current blogskins r created by th same person.
this is called fate.
LOL.
hmm,
next time i may consider making one myself.
but i think i'll probably need to squeeze all my brain juice out inorder to.
LOL;)
im starting to learn wat's all th use of all those codes.
hmm.
but its giving me a headache.

counting down,
5 more days!!!

2007-06-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

changed blogskin!!
i love this.
meaningful.
spent my 4 hrs to sort out.
today's so boring.
so little ppl online.
i realised my contacts got a lot of ppl r frm performing arts.
LOL.

2007-06-08T16:33:00.001+08:00

Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions.

AQUARIUS - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

PISCES - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

LEO - The Coolest one. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person Ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying...

GEMINI - The Liar. Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships. Addictive. Loud.

CANCER - Does It In The Water. Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Especially with your mom. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

ARIES- Irresistible. Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

SAGITTARIUS- The Lion Great talker. Attractive andpassionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

TAURUS- The Cutie. Most Amazing kisser. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely randomand proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center ofattention. High appeal. Has the lastword. Good to find, hard to keep. Funto be around. Extremely weird but in agood way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover. Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

SCORPIO - Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. Acaring person. One of a kind. Not oneto mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty.

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2007-06-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

its bathing in its sand(:

u're too short!!

hmm, my hand!

hey!! its cute!! looks quite like me =x

hmm, it seemed to be trapped.

im ill-treating it.

all its nutshells+ shits.

overall.

its new CLEAN home!

oh!! its escaping!!

2007-06-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

hmm.
juz now went lot 1 wif nicole, heidy, audrey n huiting.
bought present for huiling.
gave it to her.
cause saw her mah..
so sian.
nothing to do.
so went library talk talk lor.
after that walked home wif nicole n heidy.
...
btw,
ytd cut hair.
waited for 2 hrs.
luckily i got hui, april & kelly to accompany me.
he was so rough.
den he comb my hair until so hard.
very pain sia.
hmm,
i dun like it when i put down my hair.
so ugly.
nv reborn.
sis say sunday den do.

hmm.
count down,
6 more days.

2007-06-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

walao.
today i was so stupid.
i thought th sci supp. starts at 11am.
somemore i told hui its at tat time too.
when we reached there,
manting say:"y end le u all den come?''
we were like:" huh?"
she say:" th sci supp. today is frm 9.30-11 leh."
omg.
so we went to miss ellen tan den told her we thought it starts at 11.
but she still got mark us present.
no wonder when we go, ppl who were supposed to go for th supp. were all around.
walao.
im so ahhh!!
i pulled hui down.
den i still told heidy tat th supp. starts at 9.30.
walao.
i very blur sotong leh..
haizz.
wats th point of goin..
after tat, went to mac.
stayed until 1.35?
den i companied hui to meet huann rong,
while manting n yunfang went bac to sch.
...
2pm, homed.
started playing wif pepper.
i mean my hamster, pls.
th cage is full of its shit.
so i started picking up all its shit and all those nutshells.
its so damn tiring.
took some photos.
but i now very tired.
so next post ba!
hmm.
hamster's shit doesnt smell.
they're very hard instead.
they look like... black sesame!!
& hamsters pee too.
got once it peed on my shirt n my sofa.
NAUGHTY PEPPER!!
LOL.

2007-06-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

jus now went for netball training.
but today geraldine was not here.
so left wif i, me & myself.
so sian.
so i went to shoot.
my shooting totally sucks.
th ball can jus roll one big circle and den come out.

after tat cause i very lonely,
so i went to join them for th practice.
haha(:
others were dying to be injured.
but im injured yet i still wanna play.
this is called sportsmanship!!
ahahah.
but i dun need to run.
im okay.
but i jus cant open my legs too wide.
but of course i still did.
i even went for th game.
at first i was given GD.
but i requested for GK.
coz i cannot run so much mah.
den coach changed for me lor.
went on court for 15mins.
my thigh became pain again.
poor thingy.
hahas(:

y today so guai de..
onli 3 ppl online.
weird weird weird~

2007-06-05T13:38:00.000+08:00

NETBALL TRAINING LATER!!
3-5.30pm
n im goin there to watch again.
sian diao.

2007-06-05T12:43:00.000+08:00

haizz.
ytd went for netball but didnt play at all.
im injured.
i think its becoz i stretched too big last training.
its all th coach's fault!!!
grhh..
and now i cant open my legs too wide,
if not my thigh musle will pull again.
IT HURTS.
when i do th 'butterfly',
i can feel th absolute pain.
its like th vein is goin to SNAP!!!
& my friends said i looked like i was goin to cry.
i jus spent my whole 3hrs looking at those guys training.
actually, th feeling was quite enjoyable.
haha (:
they kept on kanna scoldin cause of th loop pass.
luckily ive still got geraldine.
& we organised a DISABLED SOCIETY!!!
ahahah =x
& coach was like down there saying:" who calls u to be injured!! now cannot play th match already!"
grh..
i wan play!!
if i cant become th top 7 players,
im goin to kill th coach who made me this.
okay.
today coach is inviting th 1st badge of seniors bac to hav a game wif us.
our exexexexexexexexexex-seniors.
they're known as "th founder of CCK netball".
but they're old already.
haha.
ya. im lucky i cant play.
haha =x
if i can play, i'll definitely be GD.
becos ytd when coach was choosing our position for th GD,
she said:" too bad, u cant play!!"
grh.. shes evil.
but actually shes quite good when she doesnt scold.
GD needs a good stamina.
but i dun have!!! i noe myself best.
...
later 2 of them joined th 'disabled society'.
esther & som?
watever, i dunno how to spell her name.
poor esther,
got blisters on both her foots.

2007-06-03T11:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm.
sian diao.
ive got some worksheets still needed to be done.
given during th sci supp.
I MUST WORK HARD!!
~~if not someone will be there boo~ing at me.~~
i hate that.
she have th ability to win, but she didnt work hard.
罪有应得.
haha =xxxxxxx
okay.
watever.
if she sees this ,
she will be down there scolding me again.
im not her cat.
老虎不发威，当我成病猫!!!!
taking me for granded.
grhhh.
thinking of her will onli increase my wrinkles!!
LOL
im old.
ive still got a few weeks to cool down.
i realli dun understand her.
....

TML WOULD BE A BETTER DAY!! (:

2007-06-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Okay.
im aching all over today.
after doin th static hold.
& i cant laugh too much.
if not my stomach muscles will hurt again.
today's bored.
mould-ed.

2007-06-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

omg.
my hamster is scary.
it jus swallowed down bout 5 nuts without peeling off their 'shell'!!
at first i thought maybe she thought it was small enough to swallow in its whole.
but unexpectedly, it VOMITED all out in its 'bed'.
luckily it vomited.
if not it would be in th reservior now.
LOL =)

quote frm tv;
Tml is a new day.
dont bring ur sorrows on, to th next day.

ORH!!
my sis say hamsters got a place to store their food.
so its natural.
i very da jing xiao gui leh..

2007-06-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

today was tired.
4 rounds of run totally wore me down.
(m i using th right phrase? my eng sucks)
okay.
after that did th same old things.
den did th continuous pass.
ive no idea y my passes kept goin wrong.
~~im a failure.~~
okay.
i'll work hard.
after tat was to catch th coach's passes.
theres 3 of them today.
~~they were total rubbish.~~
their netball skills were not tat good after all.
den one of them..
kept on throwing th ball until so far.
thought im " th incredibles" arh.
n den expect me to catch th ball.
den she still say:" u're tall!! ur suppose to be able to catch it!!"
ya right.
tall doesnt mean anything rite?
& in-order to get th ball n have no steppings,
i need to stretch my legs WIDE until they're bout to tear apart!!
somemore ive still got muscle ache!!
den after tat she realised tat most of us cant catch her ball.
den she called another coach to come n see wat went wrong.
den th another coach say:" u r throwing too far."
hahaha!!
den th another coach took over.
den she was standing beside her.
n when i caught th ball, she said well done.
& i was thinking: without u of course well done larh.
haha.
i noe im bad.
...
after den we played match again.
i was quite satisfied(:
u noe.. im starting to love GD!!
although GD is far tougher den GK.
GK is jus bout standing down there defending under th pole.
n GD also does this.
i dun think th non-netballers will understand this part FULLY.
...
last part was th MOST TOUGH amongst all.
i dunno how to describe it.
after doin that,
my bac was aching so much & my hands were shivering.
im old.

after netball..
went mac .
had lunch.
den huiling n me refused to go.
so heidy got no choice lor.
had to wait until 1.30 .
i promised her.

i think im lying to myself.

2007-05-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

suddenly remembered a quote said by heidy.
"Love is like wind. U cant touch it, but u can feel it."

& i jus cant stand it, lookin at those lovely couples.
it makes me so damn JEALOUS!!!!!!!
grh!!!

haizz.
th sight of u makes me so confused.
when i search for u in th crowd, i nv sees u.
but when im not, u appears.
sometimes, things turned out like how i wished.
e.g., when i wished u turned bac.
u realli did.
but..
is this all coincidents?
ill nv noe th ans to this unless..
a miracle happens.

so far yet so near; so near yet so far.
JEALOUSY CERTAINLY HURTS!

DO NOT CLICK THIS!!!!!

haha ;D

im lame.

2007-05-31T13:32:00.000+08:00

im aching all over after ytd's netball training.
especially my thighs.
this shows how slack m i usually =p
ahah =]
haizz.
todae at first wanna go play badminton de.
but its goin to rain soon.
somemore everything was unorganised.
okay. watever.
summary: No badminton today.

lets hope tml would rain like today.
SO NETBALL WOULD BE CANCELLED!!!
haha =)
ytd also kept on having thunder.
but not a drop of rain.
jia xian was down there:" QUICK RAIN!!!"
HAHA
but it didnt.

grhh..
can 14th june arrive soon???

2007-05-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

haizz.
actually not tat happy wif my results.
but happy wif my position?
although its not tat good after all.
but i realli feel like farting on herr.
hahas
im bad.
but i nv expected tat.
this time so many ppl de position all so UNBELIEVABLE!!
accept for some.
...
okay.
today netball..
still able to survive.
but todae was so siao.
i led th run around th sch for 4 rounds.
cause heidy was appointed to lead.
n i was her partner.
so no choice.
but u noe wat!!
I DIDNT EVEN WALK A SINGLE STEP THROUGH!!
wow!!
coach was indeed rite.
she said slow ones should run infront in order to train up our stamina.
but she was rather despised by us. =x
..
after netball,
heidy n i,
we accompanied lengwei to wait for grace to get released frm her cca.
waited for 1 hr +++ to 2 hrs?
npcc is so lame.
wondered y they jus sat down there, wif th nco-es walking around.
still need to act like dogs; stand n sit.
no offence.
n heidy played wif hotdogs.
she was so BIAN TAI.

DONE.

2007-05-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

today so sian.
stayed in this cage.
at least i still got com to use.
hahas;)
no one to snatch wif me.
cause my bro need to study for his chinese O-level tml.
muahahaha!!!
but my sis still needs to bring it to sch.
ohh.
its okay.
ive still got another one.
...

how i hope 14th june will arrive soon!!

2007-05-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

juz now..
i sms-ed wif her.
she said she totally regretted abt __________________.
actually,
i didnt see things so seriously.
i juz dun see in wat ways she ____________.
so i asked her to go n think wat words she _______ n den come n tell me.
im jus treating everything th same as before;
tellin her my mind,
n throwing my hart onto her.
but i noe theres some things i will consider if i should tell her,
definitely.
she said she noe that ive lost my trust towards her.
den,
i started wondering wats trust.
i realised tat i nv asked myself if i trusted those ppl whom i told my secrets to.
i nv worried that they will tell th others.
erm.. except for some.
trust.. wat is trust?
i asked her..
she replied:" if u hav trust on somebody, it mean you could tell her anything, and not afraid tat she would tell another person."
hmm..
i hav trust in every close friends.

when i thought of wat was trust,
i felt like crying.
i finally noe y she(another her) said she dun trust me.
its because i didnt giv her th trust that she needed.
she was rite not to trust me.
but some secrets need to be said out in order to solve.
was i rite to tell others her secrets?
im in a total lost.
actually,
shes not tat bad after all.
but y cant i trust her too?
WHYYYYYY?

time can heal everything.
so wats th point of thinking so much now?
lets juz take things by nature.
trust need time to build too.

TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY!!
& I MISS 2/6!!

2007-05-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.
i just love my phone!!
ive found th connector to my phone n th TV.
i jus tried it out.
i was so fun!!
th screen on my phone blanks out
n appear on th television!
hahas(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
FUN!!
somemore i can still sms n see th words i typed on TV!?!?!?!?
its wonderfullllllllll!!
I LOVE IT!!
but its still not wat i love mosttttt.
ahaha=)

2007-05-26T16:06:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAE!!!
haizz.
no!!
still got 6 daes of netball training!!
PLUS still need to go bac for sci supp. for 3 daes.
sian diao.
but at least go sch betta den staying at home mahx.

btw,
got a new coach.
shes kind of attitude.
exactly like th ex-seniors.
ytd was not so tough.
but th others thought that it was.
it was mainly ball passes + 2 rounds of run around th court.

yay!!
BBQ!!
=p
i think it would be successful this time.

i did extremely BAD for mid yr.
i think i failed two subjects; history n sci.
haizz
i shouldnt hav kept on studying history n neglected my sci.
i knew i would definitely not pass history de mah..
y i still study history SOOOO much?
now not onli my history failed.
EVEN MY SCIENCE FAILED TOO!!
im so damn stupid!!
haizz.
i think my father's goin to vomit blood soon(:

2007-05-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

today was a TOTALLY RUINED DAY!
but things were all sorted out?
im not sure too.
but i noe she felt guilty for doin all those.
i hav a soft heart.
n of course i did 'forgive' her.
she told me y she did that all.
n i asked her:" R wat u've juz said true?"
she said:"Yes."
i DUN think she will still lie at this point of time.
everything still remained like th past.
nothing changed.
except..
we've lost some trust in her.
this is for sure.

arh!!
tml last dae of sch le!!
i hate holiday!!
last time de 1 week holiday i feel like dying liao le.
but now!!
1 month!!
y no holiday supp de?!?!?!?!?!
sobsob T.T
haizz

time will make my love for u fade off.

2007-05-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAIZZ.
erm.
ytd.
sorted out almost everything wif herr.
but some things r better to not say out.
cause im sure it will hurt a lot.
haizz.
but now its not th matter of herr le..
its th matter of another her.
y must she do tat?
haizz
we trust her so much.
y mus she betray us?
i dun mind her sayin i not good or so..
she onli 诉苦ing mahs.
but how can say out some things tat shes not supposed to?
i once wanted to leave my herr cause of her.
becoz i believed tat SHE IS A TRUE FRIEND!!
but heres another one who doesnt APPRECIATE!
okay.
watever.
we will ask her.
i juz cant believe it.
sobsob.
if this is real,
i'll probably cry.

anyway,
i miss NICOLE!!
im soon goin late without her.

im trying to strip u of my mind n hartt.

2007-05-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

later goin out for dinner again.
celebrating for mum's bdae.
goin to eat Sakura.
i dunno y.
i juz feel like vomiting upon thinkin about food
PUKE!!
later need to call "yong ge" again.
...
i think i'll probably grow another 1kg heavier.
NONONNONONONO!!
i must watch my mouth.
...
actually im not tat angry of her le.
actually she didnt scold me tat much.
but thers things that i think she purposely do to make me paiseh lor.
im totally PISSED OFF by tat.
thers one time wher by i was so surprised of wat she said.
i totally nv expected tat she would say tat.
im not hers rite!
haizz.
i onli talk to other ppl mah.
thers no need for u to say tat rite!
...
although is onli a simple 5 words sentence,
it had went deepdeep into my heart.
i noe sometimes i realli did some things tat hurt her too.
although i didnt knew it until she spit all her saliva on me.
i hurted her deep too.
actually,
SHE BROUGHT ME LOTS OF FUN TOO!
i think i need to look at things from another point of view too.
i think she would be sad now.
nvm.
she probably needs someone to listen to her heart,
n to share her burden with.

photos

2007-05-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

VALERIEchiam.

HAMHAM-

yumyum. CARROT!

NIBBLE!

AND NIBBLE!

im trying to snatch its vege.

it vege's turn.

it taste better den carrot!

2007-05-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

today went out wif APRIL, XIAOMAN, CHU HUI N KELLY.
kelly went home earlier.
juz becoz she wanted to watch TV!
shes so bad.
zhong xi qing you.
cannot juz give up 1 episode mehs.
but 勉强是没有幸福的.
so juz let her go lor.
cannot blame her larh.
we took some neoprints.
th first time was soso.
but th 2nd time was totally WASTE OF MONEY!
we regretted using tat machine.
SO UGLY LIKE SHIT!
brought nothing home.

2007-05-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

today went mac again.
as usual.
everyday go market eat den go mac..
eat until dunno wat to eat le.
food is so limited!
singapore so small.
everyday also go mac so sian.
but lot 1 even more sian lor.
somemore,
we're all broke :(
tml still goin causeway point.
...
today so unhappy in sch.
she scolded me again.
wt*.
IM NOT YOURS!!!
i belong to everyone.
u scold me i nv scold u bac.
but instead, u begin to climb over my head!!
i wan u to be my friend; not enemy.
but u keep on scolding me for like everything i do.
i try my best to control myself le.
i did not even show u my anger towards u.
but u nv appreciate!!
u treat it like its ni suo dang ran de.
i think no one would be like SUCH A FOOL .
standing there for u to scold.
IM LIKE A TOTALLY IDIOT!!!
YES!
i cant say im a real true friend.
but if u continues to scold me.
I'LL SURE BURST ONE DAY!!
DUN TREAT MY KINDNESS AS A WEAKNESS!!!
i treasure u; but u dun!!
yes.
when u're good; u're realli good!!
i cant forbid that sometimes u're good.
yes!! u noe me well.
...
i noe im very bu yao lian =p
i think i better take her name off.
but its so damn obvious.
provided u noe us well enough.
but im bad.
actually.

2007-05-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

YIPEE!!
finally exam over le!!!
yes yes yes!!!
no need study le!!
BECOZ OF TH EXAM.. IVE GOT MORE WHITE HAIR NOW!!
im old!!
i hope to get bac maths paper soon!!
but i cant possibly get it bac tml..
ytd juz take lor..
haizz..
i dun wan take bac eng paper.
if fail den i whole exam fail le..
hope not pls!!